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knighthound-deactivated20111110 asked: I'm the same way...I can't handle it either. But we can endure this together ok. ;u; We just need to focus more on college and what's more important to help us in the future. Love is just extra baggage. It can make you feel wonderful but at the same time bring you down.

Yeah, that’s why I’ve never bothered with it before. But I just kinda got caught up in this and I thought things would be fine, but it’s really hard now that things have happened. But like I said, I missed my chance, and there’s nothing I can do to change it.

knighthound-deactivated20111110 asked: That's what I thought with tony. He was out of my league and I was being horrible to him because of my jealousy. BUT I threw it all away with him. Do you really want to throw all those memories and everything you did together because of this? Just because he's out of your league? and you feel that your self confidence just went kapoot? So what if he found this person. WHO'S GOING to be there when things go wrong? WHO understands him the most? 2 years is a long time Ash. Don't throw it away.

Yeah, I see what you’re saying there. But I can’t understand yet how things could ever go wrong between them. I mean, they’re so perfect for each other. She’s so sweet and he’s just as wonderful, and they like each other a lot. And I’m just this jealous bitch who can’t handle people who are dating let alone my close friends…

knighthound-deactivated20111110 asked: Ash...what I would suggest is, the least you can do now is be there for that person; the position that was made for you. To be there. When they're sad, angry, or in distress, is a calling for you to be there to comfort them. It's a position I envy so much, and wish to have. It's a bond no one else can have. If you're sad that you can't see them now, there's still a chance in the future! There's always opportunities open for you. Just need to set a goal and it would happen. Things take time.

I know… but the sad thing is I’m the worst person to him half of the time, so I shouldn’t even be concerned with him loving me back. Because he’s way out of my league, haha. And he has someone now who will treat him way better than I ever could.

knighthound-deactivated20111110 asked: Ugh yeah I know that feeling. I got rejected once in elementary, who was my best guy friend, cuz I was fat and not mexican or something pfft. But I got my heart broken with someone I really adored/close to but I was too coward to tell him how I feel cuz I was too scared to get rejected. Now that happened in high school. And you know from this day I still love the guy (whereas I'll never see him again). but you can find someone ash I know you can! I'm shallow too so it's hard, but WE WILL FIND.

Same thing happened here. I never said anything because I figured they didn’t want that with someone like me, and now I’ve lost them forever. And that hurts so much. But ah I’ll try to have some hope, but right now I’m just crushed.

sometimes I wish I could just forget about things ugh

knighthound-deactivated20111110 asked: What happened? *hugstightly*

Stupid love crap, wanting someone I can’t have an all of that, it’s tearing me apart yada yada

I hate love it’s retarded

I can’t even go through my dash right now

this is pretty sad ahhh

knighthound-deactivated20111110 asked: You can go through this *hugs* I know you can! You may feel dead...but it's these emotions that makes us alive. Bittersweetness, and you will move on to a different light.

I don’t know. Just… I don’t know what to do, I’m so lost and hurt right now. It’s all my fault, too, and I’ll never forgive myself for this.

Ugh I feel so dead inside right now